Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Day 23

I'm feeling like a total slacker, I didn't post last weeks results and I'm behind on this weeks too.  Last week's weigh-in, which was on Day 15 (Dec 21st) I lost 2.2 lbs, my current weight was xxx lbs.

I've struggled this past week.  Just too much going on preparing for Christmas and with the boys (including T) being home all week, I didn't work out like I should.  I did eat like I should most of the time.  It was really hard at all the parties we went to though, which totaled 6.  I also weighed in a day late, after I had already had breakfast, so these results may or may not be accurate.  Anyway, my weight this morning was xxx lbs, for a gain of 1.6 lbs.  I will admit that I am not thrilled with that, but I'm not disappointed either.  It's actually better than I expected.  

I have been eating much better though the past few days and here is what I've noticed.  If you eat good, healthy food, you don't feel like crap.  This really shouldn't be surprising, but slightly is, since it was only a laps of a few days.  Christmas night I actually felt ill and I know it was because, even though I tried, I ate the wrong things.  I never felt like I over ate though, which is always a problem I think around the holidays.  Unfortunately the only way I could have avoided eating the wrong things would have been to bring my own food, and only eat that or just have stayed home and missed out on some well needed family time.

Hopefully tomorrow I will find the time to talk about some of the tools I have come up with to help me stay on track.

Monday, December 14, 2009

Day 8, week one over

I'm very happy to report that my current weight is xxx lbs. I lost
6.6 lbs this week. I will admit I was hoping for a
higher number, but I'm still happy with what I did.
I am not getting my morning workout in since I am shopping with Chris
today. I might try out the BL Boot Camp dvd I've had for at least 9
months this afternoon.
My cough is getting worse so I need to call the dr today. It kept me
up most of the night, so I'm tired but not feeling as tired as I would
have pre-diet. I've really noticed a difference in my energy level
over the past few days and I'm sleeping better at night, when the
cough isn't keeping me up. And I'm not sure if it is possible, but I
feel a little slimmer already.

Sunday, December 13, 2009

Day 7

Almost weigh in time... I'm a little worried.  Today was a rest day so I did not work out plus we had dinner at T's mom's and I tried to be good, but when I'm not the cook it's hard to control what is going in the food. I tried to compensate by having smaller, protein packed snacks.  

My new favorite thing that I have found is the Stone Ridge tart frozen yogurt.  It tastes more like yogurt than ice cream, which is a huge plus and has the live active cultures that are in yogurt.  I bought the vanilla cause I can add whatever fruit I want to that easilest, but they also had peach, strawberry & pomegranate blueberry. I had a spoonful after returning from the grocery store tonight and it's really yummy.  Can't wait till Thursday, which is the night frozen yogurt is allotted into my dinner.  That's also fish taco night, I can't wait for fish tacos!!!

So, I said I was going to make up a list of reasons why I want to loose weight.  It really seams like I dumb thing to explain, until you actually start to think about the why.  Not everyone's why is the same either.  There are some days my why will be different.  So itt took me a little longer to come up with my list.  All the reasons are important and meaningful to me. When I'm feeling discouraged or feel like giving up, having this list to reflect on will help keep me on track and remind me that all the hard work I'm doing is worth while. So here's my list:

  • I do not recognize myself anymore
  • So my wedding ring will fit again
  • To lower my breast cancer risk
  • To be more healthy, less prone to disease (hopefully, no more pneumonia)
  • To feel attractive again
  • So I can more actively help coach Q's soccer team
  • I want to run a 5k
  • So I can run, jump and chase after (and with) the boys (and the dogs)
  • Shopping in the plus size department just sucks 
I'm starting to get the hang off the new way of eating.  It's becoming less stressful and I'm starting to sub things out.  I usually swap a whole meal idea out rather than one thing though.  I wrote up my menu for the week so that should help keep me on track of the subs I'm making.  I'm thinking I need to get a planner for when the 30-day jumpstart is over so I can continue to to write up menus for a whole week at a time.  I might get a dry erase board too and write up what I'm going to eat before going to bed each night, so there will be no guessing or improvising.  I will still use the composition book for my food journal, just to make myself accountable.

I'm really looking forward to tomorrow.  I have high hopes for the scale.  I'm also get to hang out with Chris tomorrow, which it has just been too long since I've seen her so it will be nice. We already have lunch planned.  We are going to Thai Kitchen and I am getting the Thai Kitchen salad, which is just about the yummiest thing ever.

I am off to bed now, but will return in the morning with my weekly weigh-in, percentages and if I don't forget the weekly photo.

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Day 4 and a little knitting

I was hoping I'd find time to blog daily about my weightloss journey,
guess it will be every few days.

The working out everyday is exhausting. My body is sore and tired. I
feel great after my workouts but am beat by bedtime. And waking up has
been a little harder too. And today I only had time for 1/2 an hour on
the treadmill and I was dissappointed that I didn't get my usual burn,
like I had been cheated out of it.

What to eat has been all consuming. If I'm not eating, which I am 5
times a day now, I'm planning, prepping, cooking or cleaning up after
a meal. Most things recommended in the plan though have been very good
and satisfying, so all the extra effort is worth it, esp. If I see the
results I'm hoping to have.

Today in the book it discussed writting down the reasons you are doing
this. I know it seems obvious, but it's just not always that black and
white. People don't get fat because they eat too much, it's usually a
symptom of a larger problem. So in the next day or so I will be
addressing the why. Hopefully this will help keep me on track when I'm
feeling less than motivated.

It's also important to set goals. My short term goal for myself right
now is to loose 15 lbs in these 30 days. I would als like to be able
to do 15 minutes on the eliptical without dying. Right now 5 minutes
kicks me in the butt... I actually feel like I am going to pass out if
I do more than that.

Oh, and about the knitting. It's super cold in STL right now. I bought
this Malabrigo chunky a few months ago with this hat in mind. The
single digit temps finally motivated me to cast on. Got it done in a
day, working whenever I could steal a few moments. I think it might be
the best hat I've ever made for myself. It covers my ears completely
and the chunky yarn us cute. Love the color too.

Monday, December 07, 2009

Day one done!

Today went pretty well. I didn't feel like I had much free time to
myself though. After my workout I showered got dressed grabbed a snack
and went back to work for my lunch shift. Came home had lunch, made
the humus and peanutty dip recipes in the book sat and knitted for a
short while and then it was back to school to get the boys. Came home,
cleaned the kitchen and got ready for my work Christmas party.

So dinner was at the party. Fortunately it was at a local restaurant
and since everyone paid for their own meal, I was able to order
whatever I wanted. I got the salmon and subbed the potato for steamed
broccoli. I squeezed some lemon juice over the broc... Yum. It was
really good. The dinner also came with soup and a salad so I got the
tortollini soup which was the only brothy soup and on the salad I got
the house dressing, but used as little of it as possible so I still
got the flavor of it. It is my favorite dressing.

I was not allotted an evening snack in the plan but really wanted one
so I cut up an apple and had a TBSP of the peanutty dip. It was very
satisfying but I didn't feel like I blew my whole day on it. Not
having an evening snack is going to be the hardest thing for me. My
favorite time to eat is after 8pm.

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Forgot a pic

Was going to add this to my orig post. Looking extra gross cause this
is post workout.

Day 1

I've had my bfast, went to the gym, did my mobility & strength
exercises, but before any of that, I weighed myself. And the number
is... xxx lbs. Not as high as I thought it would be but still not
good, right. I'm feeling really good though.
I did a little over 3 miles on the treadmill today, was on for an hour.
And the good news... Instead of feeling week cause I admitted I weigh
nearly xxx, I feel empowered. I'm hoping this will keep me
motivated and accountable to anyone who may read this.
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Sunday, December 06, 2009

Zero minus seven hours...

Think I'm all set for my start date tomorrow. I decided to push it
back till Monday cause as I was reading the book it says you should
have a workout free day to rest and I decided I would rather rest on
Sundays and if I started on a Sunday that would have put the rest day
on a Saturday the way the plan is mapped out in the book.

So I purchased a new scale and told the boys they could not weigh
their toys and stuff so they don't run down the battery. And I ran to
the store and good the food items in the plan for the next few days. I
cleaned out the fridge and cut up veggies. I have a pot of chickpeas
soaking so I can cook them tomorrow and make hummus. I did not lay out
my workout clothes though, but T is off tomorrow so I can change after
my morning shift since he's gonna go to the gym with me. Gotta hit
the hay so I can try to get up early enough to have breakfast before I
go in for the morning shift.

I'm feeling really good about this. Looks like I might have a few
friends joining me on this journey too!

Friday, December 04, 2009

Am I crazy? I should do this.

So I'm sitting in front of the boys school, waiting to pick them up. I
ran to Kmart for some Christmas ornaments and too look for pj pants
and picked up The Biggest Looser 30-Day jumpstart. Sitting in the car
reading it. And I can't believe what just crossed my mind, what I'm
seriously considering.

I can't believe I may actually do this. Can I really do this? Am I
strong enough? I'm actually breaking down about to cry. WTF. Why is
this such a big deal. Why can't I do this. Can I really blog about my
weightloss? Can I put myself out there for anyone to see? It's no
secret that I'm fat. Why am I afraid to put that number out there.
That number that has climbed and climbed and is like a noose around my
neck, slowly choking the life out of me.

Sunday is the day. I should be over my sinus infection enough by then
to workout. Can I do it though? Can I come back here and post that
number. Post a photo. Put myself out there. I guess we'll have to wait
and see.